Charitability

How would you feel if for the first time,you invested so much effort to help the less fortunate,being naive in the other details, and someone just STEPS IN and says, NO, and you can't do nothing about it.

It's like, you want to donate rm5 to a poor person, but, that person says, "one day u will need that rm5... You have to keep that rm5! otherwise I'll...."
All you want is to be helpful, and someone just comes in and ruin everything.

[Insert Your Response]
eg. I would push that person aside, and say "Here, take this rm5 too, if you're so dissatisfied with my charity, oh so holy being. Put your money somewhere other than your mouth"

PAS (2)

come to think about it, three posts ago I said I wanted GOD to teach me how to love and be hated. And now that he's training me, I'm being indifferent.

I must really be a letdown to GOD. 'Uncool'. Still, God is love and love won't leave me. So what if I'm hated? He loves me. You too.

PAS

Perpetually-Annoyed-Syndrome.. Anyone relating to this?

It's seriously irritating when someone doesn't treat you with the respect that an individual deserves. So what about it? Do you swallow it in, pretend nothing ever happened? Do you unleash the impending wrath upon your oppressor(s)? I'm the latter persona. Sometimes I wish I knew how to... , no, I definitely want to be able to correct lovingly. But love is difficult. "Yeah, tell me about it", says my inner self. Is it because of my own lack of patience, a fault of my Creator? Nah, that's not possible.
Two perspectives in this scenario:


1. the IRRITATED:
Simply, IRRITATED LIKE MAD LAH!!!! It's even more irritating when IRRITATOR is someone you are close to. (Note that I didn't use the term love). NOTABLY when that someone is a CHRISTIAN. Do this, do that. You shouldn't say this, that's a badword! If you truly love GOD you would listen to so and so speak instead of spending your time doing useless things like you're doing now. I can't rely on you, you're so unreliable. You are facing all this issues because of that sin lah, there, you remember that sin?

CUT THE CRAP,you self-righteous, guilt-piling (insert irritating person here)..
I'm already feeling judgemental at this point, so I'll leave it as it is.


2. the IRRITATOR:

Fill in the blanks, you who regard yourself to be here. I dareth not conclude this is how you feel: BUT the following probably is, 'well maybe':

Simply, IRRITATED LIKE MAD LAH!!!! It's even more irritating when IRRITATOR is someone you are close to. (Note that I didn't use the term love). NOTABLY when that someone is a CHRISTIAN. Do this, do that. You shouldn't say this, that's a badword! If you truly love GOD you would listen to so and so speak instead of spending your time doing useless things like you're doing now. I can't rely on you, you're so unreliable. You are facing all this issues because of that sin lah, there, you remember that sin?

CUT THE CRAP,you self-righteous, guilt-piling (insert irritating person here)..
I'm already feeling judgemental at this point, so I'll leave it as it is.


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It feels terrible on either side of the wall. Sigh. Even right now, I'm still feeling as if I've been dealt injustice. JESUS definitely has gone through what I have. What would you do, LORD?

Very

Hard leh..

Love and be hated, or hate love Himself

Matt 10:25 -> It is enough for the student to be like his teacher, and the servant like his master..

You were hated, LORD Jesus, despised by the very people you loved, scorned by the people you saved. As such, make me that way too, that I may be like you. As you have worn a crown of thorns, let me not wear a crown of jewel made by man, for it is dishonouring. Show me the way to wear this painful crown of thorns, and to bear this heavy cross. May I walk as you have walked, like a man without a place to lay his head. Teach me how to love and be hated, so that I may be considered worthy of a place in heaven near to You. Let me not say I love you with words, but hate you by not picking up my cross daily.

and I thought being a Christian was easy.


picture courtesy of www.rosaryworkshop.com

me? worship leader?

if you can so casually describe worship as a lifestyle and not a liturgy, then worship leading isn't about leading a 5 piece band anymore. Will it not be about showing people how to live their lives?

If it's about picking up my own cross, then I'm no worship leader.